Il-Kantina ta Xwajten

Dan Il-Blogg ser jieqaf

2005-08-07T15:12:00.000Z

Peress illi ma nistax insib tarf kif ser nirranga din il-problema li zviluppatli, iddecidejt li nwaqqaf dan il-blogg. Il-bloggati tieghi ser jibdew jkunu go dan il-blogg. Nispera li tibqghu ssegwu l-kazzati tieghi. Jekk xi darba nsib tarf, nerga nibda nibbloggja hawn.

Sa dak iz-zmien, jekk jigi,
Sahha

Xwajten

Ma nafx x'gara

2005-08-05T20:19:00.000Z

Minkejja li din l-entry ser tigi mpustata fil-blog bhal li kieku giet miktuba minn Mistoqsija, din qed niktibha jien, Xwajten. Ghaliex?
1. Ma nafx x'gara. Meta nidhol go Blogger, qed jghidli li jien signed in pero ma jaghtinix options biex inzid posts godda jew inbiddel xi haga fil-blogg.
2. Mistoqsija, (grazzi kbira, mwa mwa mwa) fdatli l-password biex jien inkun nista inharbex xi haga u nispjega naqra x'inqala......forsi ma tafx kif insib lil xi genju jghidli daqsxejn kif ser insolvi dil-problema.

Ghalissa dak kollox. Nispera li ghal issa u mhux ghal dejjem!

Maaaaaa, x'misthija!!!

2005-07-27T22:49:00.000Z

Blogg bil-vjola, mhux ahmar. Ghaliex? Ghax tant sthajt li ma bqajtx ahmar, gejt vjola metallic!

Illum ghamilt super mega cavolata!

Jien u z-zghira tieghi (jigifieri l-gharusa), peress illi ilna ghaddejjin b'ritmu xejn attraenti fejn minn xoghol nibqghu sejrin ghal xoghol iehor, iddecidejna li flimkien immorru nghamlu BBQ ghal kwiet. Illum, li inzurtat hi l-unika gurnata li fiha m'hinix xoghol f'dawn is-sebat ijiem, morna bil-hsieb ta BBQ minghajr ma nafu fejn sejrin. Wara li kien ilna imwahhlin fit-traffiku ghal aktar minn siegha (minhabba incident tat-traffiku go Burmarrad - nispera li t-tabib involut jehlisha minn halq il-mewt) konna ghaddejjin u sibna bicca tidher mhux hazin u ntfajna hemm.

Waqt it-tisjir, f'hin tant delikat li ma jmurx inwaqqa xi bicca laham, tigi tipparkja karozza fit-triq magembna li baqghet bid-dawl mixghul ghal ftit hin mhux hazin ovvjament il-fanali taghha fil-livell ta wicci. Intefa u wara ftit rega inxteghel. Il-sottoscritto qabad jinkazza (ghax dawl qawwi generalmant jghamilli ugiegh ta ras) u fil-pront, l-inbid ahmar li ghasart mal-kunjatu s-sajf li ghadda tkellem b'vuci gholja mhux hazin u qal, "Itfilu naqra dak id-dawl hi. Mela qed tfittex l-ommok jew?!"

Ma nafx/nahsibx li min kien hemm gol-karozza sema dak li ghedt. Nispera li le, hafna nispera li le ghaliex minn wara id-dawl tfigg it-tutor tat-tezi tieghi..........................oops! B'reazzjoni hafn' aktar ghaggelija minn dik tal-kamaleonte, jien gejt ta kulur ahmar, anzi, vjola. Semghatni jew ma semghatnix ma nafx pero ta mara ferm dhulija li hi giet tkellimna. Nispera li ma semghatnix ghax minn tant nies, ma din ma rridx naqta figura kerha, mhux biss ghaliex ghandi bzonn l-ghajnuna taghha, pero wkoll u iktar, ghaliex ghandi stima kbira lejha u nammirha.

Deadline in horse dung case

2005-07-23T17:07:00.000Z

An article in The Times of Malta explains how the Marsa local council is facing financial problems mostly due to the fact that the budget allocated by the central government for clearing up of horse dung was Lm750 a year whilst it is actually costing the council lm 10,000 a year.

During the previous sitting, Dr Padovani Grima gave a provisional ruling

saying the council should continue to collect the waste

until the case was concluded because the waste presented a health hazard.

It ordered the government to pay for its collection.

And one asks him/herself:

Doesn't the government think that a miserable Lm 750 a year is a bit too little a sum to cover this job?

On the other hand, should we not charge a fee to the horse owners for such clearing? It will surely be a valuable contribution especially considering that most horse owners are quite well off financially.

T'was in my mail!

2005-07-22T21:29:00.000Z

Excerpt from an article which appeared in the Dublin Times about a bank robbery on March 2.

Once inside the bank shortly after midnight, their efforts at disabling the security system got underway immediately. The robbers, who expected to find one or two large safes filled with cash & valuables, were surprised to see hundreds of smaller safes throughout the bank. The robbers cracked the first safe's combination, and inside they foundonly a small bowl of vanilla pudding. As recorded on the bank's audio tape system,one robber said, "At least we'll have a bit to eat." The robbers opened up a second safe, and it also contained nothing but vanilla pudding.

The process continued until all safes were opened. They did not find one pound sterling, a diamond, or an ounce of gold. Instead, all the safes contained covered bowls of pudding. Disappointed, the robbers made a quiet exit, each leaving with nothing more than a queasy, uncomfortably full stomach.

The newspaper headline read:

IRELAND'S LARGEST SPERM BANK ROBBED EARLY THIS MORNING..........

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh!!!!!!!!!!!

For Tad - Monsters, stay out of this room! You have no business here.

2005-07-18T20:51:00.000Z

"Good night, Tad." His mother's voice trailed back to him lightly, softly, and in his mind he cried out, Be careful, Mommy, they eat the ladies! In all the movies they catch the ladies and carry them off and eat them! Oh please oh please oh please-
But they were gone.

So Tad Trenton, four years old, lay in his bed, all wires and stiff Erector Set braces. He lay with covers pulled up and one arm crushing Teddy against his chest.....................................................And then a new screaming, this one closer than the nightwind outside, brought him back to staring wakefulness again.

The hinges on the closet door.
Creeeeeeeeeeeee-
That thin sound, so high that perhaps only dogs and small boys awake in the night could have heard it. His closet door swung open slowly and steadily, a dead mouth opening on darkness inch by inch and foot by foot.

The monster was in the darkness. It crouched where it had crouched before. It grinned at him, and its huge shoulders bulked above its cocked head, and its eyes glowed amber, alive with stupid cunning.

I told you they'd go away Tad, it whispered. They always do, in the end. And then I can come back. I like you, Tad. I'll come back every night now, I think, and every night I'll come a little closer to your bed.....and a little closer.....until one night, before you can scream for them, you'll hear something growling, something growling right beside you, Tad, it'll be me, and I'll pounce, and then I'll eat you and you'll be in me.

Tad stared at the creature in his closet with drugged, horrified fascination. There was something that...was almost familiar. Something he almost knew. And that was the worst, that almost knowing.

skart, skips u proliferanza ta njuranza

2005-07-17T06:30:00.000Z

Nisma bhalissa - Crucifiction mill-Passjoni

Dalghodu qomt ikkargat biex nippublika blogg fuq l-iskart. (In-naghas hu l-iskuza eccellenti ghal xi zbalji fil-grammatika) Fuq l-iskart minn tant? Iva, imma mhux biss. Blogg fuq l-iskart u l-injuranza fahxija li hawn renjanti hawn Malta.

Recipjenti (skips) ghas-separazzjoni ta l-iskart kien ilhom li tpoggew u bdew jintuzaw sewwa mir-residenti ta Pembroke ghal snin twal. Wara li ghadda z-zmien ghamilna pass l-quddiem u llum insibu hafna aktar minn dawn l-iskips. Il-poplu bilmod qed jitghallem jissepara, mhux zwigijiet biss izda anke skart. Prosit Maltin.
Imma, ghax minghajr 'l-imma' ma nghamlu xejn! X'jigri meta jkollna xi kaxxa kbira? Xi tank li ma jghaddix mit-toqba ta l-iskip? Xi soft toy li ma jikklassifikax ghal go l-ebda wahda mill-4 skips? Il-Malti minghajr ma jahseb, ipoggiha pulita go xi kantuniera ma gemb l-iskips (soluzzjoni ala Karmnu Zabbab) Issa, meta jingabru x'jigri? Ovvjament tat-trakk jigi altament jitnejjek u jitfa kollox gol-kaxxa, sakemm ma jhallix kollox hemm!

Mela dalwaqt (jekk mhux sejjer zbaljat, Jannar 2006) ser nimplimentaw ligi fejn min jinqabad jarmi barra ser jittiehdu mizuri horox kontra tieghu. Tajjeb ferm, kellna bzonn! Ser nimmultaw lil min ipoggi is-soft toy magemb l-iskip? Ser niehdu passi kontra dak il-warden li jigi l-pjazza tas-Saqqajja jwarrab u jimmulta lil min jkun ipparkjat irregolarment imbghad wara li jghaffgu, jarmi l-pakkett tas-sigaretti ma l-art? (Barra li jkun ipparkja hazin hu stess!)

His distinctive brown uniform puts every driver on the alert.

He has all the fearsome attributes of the traffic policeman

but none of his compensations.

He is practically useless in a traffic accident

and he has no wheels, other than a silly little moped, to get around

and chase the serious pests on the road.

Minghajr ma rrid indahhal daqsxejn nota fuq il-wardens! Mhux ghax ghandi xi mibgheda titbejjet go qalbi ghal dawn in-nies imma ghaliex nahseb li biex tinforza ma tridx toddotta l-attitudni li sfortunatament addottaw dawn in-nies. Ma nammonikx imma intik karta hamra ma l-ewwel foul! Insomma, lura ghal l-iskips.

U lil ta l-iskips x'ser nghamlu bihom? Sfortunatament kelli personalment nassisti ghal insult lejn l-intelligenza ta kull min jkun hemm prezenti. Darba fil-Mosta (magemb il-knisja) u darb'ohra fir-Rabat (fejn il-flats tal-gvern fin-Nigret) kelli nassisti ghat-tbattil ta dawn ir-recipjenti bi skart maghzul. X'jigri?

4 skips, trakk wiehed!

L-ewwel darba kont il-Mosta. Kont qed inhares halli nara kif jitbattlu w irrealizzajt li dan ma kienx ser ibattal wahda biss. Ir-raguni titlob li jew ikun hawn 4 trakkijiet u kull wiehed idur u jigbor mill-kulur ta skip assenjat lilu jew inkella il-kaxxa tat-trakk tkun bid-divizorji. Mela bejni u bejn ruhi bdejt nghid, "Erbgha basktijiet u kantuniera mohlija minn go flat diga zghir biex tissepara l-iskart biex imbghad jigi tat-trakk u jwaddab kollox f'daqqa." X'taqbad taghmel ghid? Tibki? Tidhak? Tidghi?

Fejn? Departure lounge tal-ajruport internazzjonali ta’ Malta.
Meta? Marzu 2005
X’gara?
Konferma ohra ta’ kemm Malta pajjiz tal-mickey mouse. Nafu li l-awtoritajiet iheggu sabiex jigi sseparat l-iskart, u nhargu skips apposta ghal-karti, hgieg u ghal metal, hemm min jaqleb is-sistema ta’ taht fuq. Fid-departure lounge tal-ajruport ukoll bdew ihaddmu din l-iskema (ovvjament fuq skala izghar) fejn f’diversi postijiet hemm recipjenti ghal skart differenti u anke r-recipjenti innifishom ghandhom kulur differenti apposta. Jidher li dawk li jkunu se jsiefru juzaw sew dan is-servizz. Ikun ghalhekk tad-dahk jew tal-biki meta mbaghad tara li meta jingabar l-iskart mir-recipjenti, minflok jinzamm isseparat … jintefa kollox f’daqqa f’borza wahda!!! Allura ghalfejn tissepara l-iskart biex imbaghad terga thaltu flimkien? U t-turisti jidhku l-ahhar dahka qabel ihallu din l-art!!!

F'Settembru 2001 editorjal ta' The Times kellu jammetti, "let’s face it, we must be one of the dirtiest countries in the world."

Jeffrey Pullicino Orlando F'Marzu 2002 gie kkwotat minn The Times li qal, "we have completely ignored and neglected our environment, nothing is being done on a practical basis."

F'April 2002, The Malta Independent taghtna rigal sabih. Ritratti li juru l-mizbliet kullimkien madwar Malta taht it-titlu Malta One Big Dump.

F'Settembru 2003, The Malta Independent irrapurtat "vegetation five feet high, rubbish deposited outside skips and also a car abandoned in the area since February. . ."

Waste Serv hawn!
Il-Ministeru hawn

Xummiemu

Skips qrib tieghak

Issa ser nieqaf hawn ghax ma rridx li dan il-blogg jiswini n-nofs ta nhar tal-Hadd filghodu kollu. Filwaqt li nispera li hadd minn dawk li ser jaqraw dan il-blogg mhu ser jaghmel xi gurnata jinkwieta fuq l-iskips, nipprepara biex immur nixrob it-tielet tazza kafe ghal dalghodu.

Sahha

5 ta April, 1994

2005-07-13T15:32:00.000Z

Nisma - Nirvana - Unplugged in New York

Ta 11-il sena niftakar kont mort darba ma ommi biex nikru xi videos. Dak iz-zmien kont nitefa quddiem il-'kaxxa' u nqatta sieghat twal nara films generalment jew taparsi tal-biza jew b'xi 'skoss sparar u titjir ta dmijja', kif kienet tiddeskrivijhom ommi. Barraminhekk, f'dik is-sena wkoll xtrajt l-ewwel album ta hajti, precizament minghand l-istess hanut li kien jikri il-videos. "Fear of the Dark" ta l-Iron Maiden, ovvjament kopja, pero ghadu ghandi sa llum u sa llum ghadu ma l-aktar 10 favoriti.

'Diski tax-xitan, films tal-vjolenza' w dilettant kbir ta l-armi, kif ghadni. Imbghad, wara li xi studenti go l-Amerika dahlu l-iskola bl-armi u ghamlu herba minn shabhom u fl-ahbarijiet xi bahnan haseb li kien tant importanti li jsemmi li dawn l-istudenti kienu jisimghu muzika bhal ma kont nisma jien (Iron Maiden, Nirvana, Hole, Kiss, Doors, Black Sabbath, Deep Purple, Led Zeppelin, Necrophobic, Brujeria, Burzum, Carcass, Metallica, u hafna hafna ohrajn) id-diskussjoni familjari terga taqbad it-trejqa lejn it-tgergir u l-kritika ta x'nisma u x'nara w fuq kemm hu perikuluz u x'jista jsir minni w bla bla bla.

Ovvjament, jien kont nigi altament nitnejjek minn x'jahsbu w x'jghidu ta madwari (kont minghalija li ghax spiccajt is-sekondarja kont sirt xi hadd KBIR, xi granalla), u komplejt inkabbar il-kollezzjoni ta diski (fost l-ohrajn) tieghi. Biex nifthemu, qatt ma ddispjacieni li komplejt inkabbar il-librerija muzikali tieghi eh! Iddispjacieni biss li nehhejt hafna mid-diski meta miet habib ghaziz hafna ghalija, Dean (maghruf ma hafna bhala Carcass). Nehhejthom ghax ma flahx nismaghhom. Kienu jgibuli memorji sbieh imma jifthuli feriti fondi wkoll. Ta l-anqas tajtom lil kuginuwi. Nergghu ghal-lum, films ta azzjoni ghadni nara kultant u anke xi wiehed horror gieli, pero invarja ftit mhux hazin. Hin biss ma ghadnix insib ghal quddiem il-'kaxxa' u nispicca li xi thriller jew film horror ma narahx ma l-gharusa ghax tkun ser tamputali d-driegh li jkolli n-naha taghha bil-hasdiet ta gbid kull meta tinhasad xi ftit.

Insomma, lura ghal 5 ta April ta l-1994: Kont student tal-S.P.M.C nipprepara ghal-O levels. Ilu 11-il sena mma ghadni niftakar kif dak iz-zmien kont ghaddej minn perjodu fejn il-grupp numru 1 li kont nisma (dejjem bid-diski taghhom mieghi; lezzjonijiet, brejk, canteen, id-dar, kullimkien) kien Nirvana. Dakinhar kien ghadni nasal il-Pjazza tas-Saqqajja biex niltaqa ma shabi meta nisma l-bidu ta l-ahbarijiet. Dhalt ghand Tony tat-take away, dak iz-zmien In n' Out u nistenna biex nara l-ahbarijiet ghax ma kontx cert jekk smajtx sew. hekk kien, "Kurt Donald Cobain, il-kantant tal-grupp grunge Nirvana, misjub mejjet god-dar tieghu llum presumibilment wara li kkommetta suwicidju". Dakinhar ergajt lura d-dar ghax ma kontx f'burdata li mmur niehu gost meta naf li wiehed mill-idoli tieghi kien nehha hajtu b'idejh. Ghal grazzja t'Alla ma kellix mobile dak iz-zmien u hadd ma seta jdejjaqni jibghat smss biex jindaga ghaliex ma hrigtx. Dhalt go kamarti, ON, RANDOM PLAY, REPEAT, tfejt u qghadt fid-dlam fuq is-sodda nisma l-albums "Nevermind" u "In Utero" ghax dawk kienu l-aktar tnejn li kienu jghogbuni dak iz-zmien. Marret ghajni bija f'xi hin ghax stembaht l-ghada filghodu bl-istereo ghadu mixghul. L-ghada irrealizzajt li Cobain minn dejjem kien bniedem b'potenzjal li jikkommetti suwicidju. Kien hu stess l'ammetta kemm il-darba li jhallat alkohol ma drogi, u fost l-ohrajn darba iddeskriva lilu nnifsu bhala "a suicidal being". Ghalija kienet telfa kwazi kbira bejn ghax kont ghaddej minn zmien fejn ahjar minn Nirvana ma kontx nisma f'widnejja w bejn ghax qatt ma tlift lil hadd daqshekk importanti f'hajti qabel (kellu jkun fl-2001 meta sirt naf x'jigifiri titlef lil xi hadd li f'hajtek ghamel id-differenza).

U ghadda l-ghada w bilmod ghaddejt mill-periodu Nirvana u mort ghal grupp iehor, probabbli mbramt ma Ozzy u s-Sabbath jew xi wiehed mill-ohrajn. U llum kelli nerga niftakar.......heh.

Where do bad folks go when they die?
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
They go to the lake of fire and fry
Won't see them again 'till the fourth of July

I knew a lady who came from Duluth
She got bit by a dog with a rabid tooth
She went to her grave just a little too soon
And she flew away howling on the yellow moon

Where do bad folks go when they die?
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
They go down to the lake of fire and fry
Won't see them again 'till the fourth of July

Now the people cry and the people moan
And they look for a dry place to call their home
And try to find some place to rest their bones
While the angels and the devils try to make them their own

Where do bad folks go when they die?
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
They go down to the lake of fire and fry
Won't see them again 'till the fourth of July

Kurt Donald Cobain was the leader of Nirvana, the multi-platinum grunge band that redefined the sound of the nineties.
Cobain was born on the 20th of February 1967 in Hoquaim, a small town 140 kilometers south-west of Seattle. His mother was a cocktail waitress and his father was an auto mechanic. Cobain soon moved to nearby Aberdeen, a depressed and dying logging town.
Cobain was a happy child, always smiling, not being able to wait till the next day. But then matters were made worse when Cobain's parent's divorced when he was seven and by his own account Cobain said he never felt loved or secure again. He became increasingly difficult, anti-social and withdrawn after his parent's divorce. Cobain also said that his parent's traumatic split fueled a lot of the anguish in Nirvana's music.
After his parent's divorce Cobain found himself shuttled back and forth between various relatives and at one stage, he says, homeless living under a bridge, but this is not true.
When Cobain was eleven he heard and was captivated by Britain's Sex Pistols and after their self-destruction Cobain and friend Krist Novoselic continued to listen to the wave of British bands including Joy Division the nihilistic post-punk band that some say Nirvana are directly descended from in form of mood, melody and lyrical quality.
Cobain's artistry and iconoclastic attitude didn't win many friends in high school and sometimes earned him beatings from "jocks" Cobain got even by spray painting "QUEER" on their pick-up trucks. By 1985 Aberdeen was dead and Cobain's next stop was Olympia. Cobain formed and reformed a series of bands before Nirvana came to be in 1986. Nirvana was an uneasy alliance between Cobain, bassist Krist Novoselic and eventually drummer and multi-instrumentalist Dave Grohl.
By 1988 Nirvana were playing shows and had demo tapes going around. In 1989 Nirvana recorded their rough-edged first album Bleach for local Seattle independent label Sub-Pop.
In Britain Nirvana received a lot of recognition and in 1991 their contract was bought out by Geffen, they signed to the mega label, the first non-mainstream band to do so. Two and a half years after Nirvana's first C.D. Bleach was released they released Nevermind, a series of different, crunching, screaming songs that along with it's first single Smells Like Teen Spirit would propel Nirvana to mainstream stardom.
Smells Like Teen Spirit became Nirvana's most highly acclaimed and instantly recognizable song. Not many people can decipher it's exact lyrics but Cobain used a seductive hook line to hook the listener. Nevermind went on to sell ten million copies and make a reported $550 million (US) leaving Nirvana overnight millionaires. Cobain was shocked at the reception of his highly personal and passionate music repeatedly telling reporters that none of the band ever, ever expected anything like this. It quickly became obvious that the obsessively sickly and sensitive 24yr old was not going to cope well with the rock 'n' roll lifestyle. "If there was a rock star 101 course, I'd really have like to take it," Cobain once observed. Cobain fell into heroin in the early 90's, he said he used it as a shield against the rigorous demands of touring and to stop the pain of stomach ulcers or an irritated bowel. Through the touring and pressure Cobain continued to write his very personal acutely focused lyrics.
Cobain was distressed to find out that what he wrote and how it was interpreted could quite often be miles apart. He was appalled when he found out that Polly a heavily ironic anti-rape song had been sung by 2 men as they raped a young girl. He later appealed to fans on the Incesticide liner notes "If any of you don't like gays or women or blacks, please leave us the fuck alone." It was to no avail, Cobain found that as an overnight millionaire musician control was something he had very little of. Cobain also worried that his band had sold-out, that it was attracting the wrong kind of fans (i.e the type that used to beat him up).
In February 1992 Cobain skipped off to Hawaii to marry the already pregnant Courtney Love. Later in the year Nirvana released Incesticide and in August Cobain had hospital treatment for heroin abuse. Shortly after Frances Bean Cobain was born. In early 1993 In Utero was released into the top spot on the music charts. In Utero was widely acclaimed by the music press and it contains some of Cobain's most passionate work. In Utero was a lot more open than Nirvana's previous albums. Songs like All Apologies and Heart Shaped Box detailed aspects of Cobain's sometimes shaky marriage, other songs like Scentless Apprentice detailed the agonies and struggles of Cobain's experiences.
Nirvana embarked on a support tour and recorded and filmed an "unplugged" (acoustic) performance for MTV in November of 1993. Nirvana's choice to honor bands and people that had influenced them and Cobain's passionate and intense vocals especially on "Where Did You Sleep Last Night?"silenced many of their who had labeled Cobain talentless. Rumors circulated that the MTV Unplugged compilation would be Nirvana's last album and the band were splitting up.
Cobain was a gun fanatic and always had several in his possession or in various forms of confiscation. In the northern winter of 1993-94 Nirvana embarked on an extensive European tour. Twenty concerts into the tour Cobain developed throat problems and their schedule was interrupted while he recovered. While recovering Cobain flew to Rome to join his wife who was also preparing to tour with her own band.
On March the 4th Cobain was rushed to hospital in a coma after what has been labeled an unsuccessful suicide bid in which he washed down about fifty prescription painkillers with champagne. It was officially called an accident and was not even made known to close friends and associates. Several days later he returned to Seattle. Cobain's wife, friends and managers convinced Cobain, who was still in deep distress to enter a detox program in L.A. According to a missing person's report filed by Courtney Love, pretending to be Wendy O'Connor Kurt's mother, Cobain fled after only a few days of the program.
Cobain was cited in the Seattle area with a shotgun. Days later on the 5th of April Kurt Cobain went into the small room above his garage in his Seattle home and ended it all.
Cobain's body was found when an electrician visiting the house to install a security system was walking around outside when no one answered the front door and peered through windows. He thought he saw a mannequin sprawled on the floor until he noticed a splotch of blood by Cobain's ear. When police arrived on the scene they found Cobain with a shotgun still pointed at his chin and on a nearby counter a suicide note written in red ink addressed to Love and the couples then 19 month old daughter Frances Bean.
The suicide note ended with the words "I love you, I love you." Two days after Kurt Cobain's body was found about 5,000 people gathered in Seattle for a candlelight vigil. The distraught crowd filled the air with profane chants, burnt their flannel shirts and fought with police. They also listened to a tape made by Cobain's wife in which she read parts from his suicide note. Kurt Donald Cobain was 27. (Found here)

And I swear
That I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun

Londra, il-mejta jistgħu jkunu 80. Blair fil-'Commons', "naqbdukom". Investigazzjonijiet fuq 30 suspettat

2005-07-11T19:05:00.000Z

LONDRA - Il-Prim Ministru Ingliż Tony Blair sostna f'diskors fil-House of Commons, li l-kaċċa għat-terroristi li wettqu l-attakki f'Londra se tibqa' "sakemm jinqabdu", u wissa lill-istess terroristi li mhux se jingħataw paċi, "huma fejn huma".

Anke li kieku id-demm ma kienx jigbed lejn il-gzira Ingliza, kieku xorta wahda nahseb illi kont inhoss dak li hassejt hekk kif smajt l-ahbar ta x'gara go Londra. Kont nerga nhoss kif hassejt fil-11 ta Settembru tal-2001. Hassejt ghan-nies civili li ma kellom xejn x'jaqsmu ma dak li gara.
Hassejt tahlita ta niket u soghba imdawwrin minn kapsula ta rabja li tibqa tinhall bilmod, tibqa tfakkar. Rabja ghal min ghamel, rabja ghal min stieden.
U issa kien imiss lil Inglizi kif ser ikun imiss lil nazzjonijiet ohra, ghax dawn in-nies ma jidrhux li behsiebhom jieqfu jikkommettu attrocitajiet. Qed isiru l-kankru li qed joqtol lid-dinja.

Il-grazzi? Lil min taghtiha? Jien naghti l-parti l-kbira taghha lil Bush. Ried isib skuzi plawsibbli biex juri kemm hi b'sahhitha l-Amerika. "We declare war on terror" kien qal. Prosit, urejtna anke kemm hi dghajjfa ghax gew go darek u ghamlulek herba. Il-bicca hi li l-ugiegh mhux int hassejtu!
Bla ebda dubju, it-tieni l-akbar porzjon ta grazzi w prosit jiehdu Blair. Bniedem laghqi li dahal (jew halla lil min idahhlu) go din il-froga. L-istess, ugiegh ghal-familjari tal-imsejkna, nies imbezza. Imbghad biex taparsi nigbru giehna nibqghu nfittxu "sakemm jinqabdu".

Tghid il-poter lil nies bhal dawn igghalhom jahsbu li huma omnipotenti?
Dawn vera jaghtu kaz ta nieshom? Ghandom imhabba lejn pajjizhom, imhabba ta vera?
Nahseb li hu zgur hu li jekk taqta lil min hu moghmi bil-fanaticismu w tikkunsidra biss lil min jahseb b'mohhu, tintebah illi dawn il-mexxejja kull ma qedin jghamlu huwa li jizirghu zrierghah ta dubji go l-imhuh tan-nies li aktar ma jghaddi zmien, aktar qed jinkwetaw dwar x'hinu gej ghal-wiccna.

Min jaf x'hinu gej?!? Nghid id-dritt, nibza nahseb.

REFURBISHING MY BLOGG

2005-07-11T15:32:00.000Z

I GOT AN INTERIOR DESIGNER HELPING OUT WITH THE REFURBISHMENT. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

Hlejt nofs ta' nhar?

2005-07-10T22:59:00.000Z

Nhares lejn l-arlogg. Ghajnejja ghadhom nofshom maghluqin.. is-siegha u nofs? Tghid marritlu l-battery? Imma allura l-arloggi kollha tad-dar marritilhom il-battery?
Jew forsi veru s-siegha u nofs..
- "Ma, x'hin hu?"
- "Qomt? Hlejt nofs ta'nhar?"

Iva hlejt nofs ta' nhar. Qattajt xi hames sighat aktar milli suppost gewwa dik is-sodda, nohlom. Ghaliex hu l-holm li donnu jigbdek lura fin-nghasa, anke meta mohhok jghidlek li ghandek tqum. Huwa l-holm li jhalli lill-kurzita' ghatxana ghal x'ser jigri, ghal x'jista' jsir. Huwa l-holm li jpoggik f'dinja surreali, bhal loghba, fejn int taf li meta tkun "Game Over", tista' taghfas "Restart".

U l-kliem baqghu jidwu.. "Hlejt nofs ta' nhar?"
Le.. din id-darba le! Din id-darba ghazilt tajjeb. Id-dinja tal-holm ferm isbah, ghaliex taf li meta ddejqek, meta tixba, tista' tqum.

HBV

2005-07-10T10:13:00.000Z

One life - wasted

The other - a waste

Thanks to junkies.
As long as you are happy getting a kick out of sharing cocktails of blood and junk between you, go ahead and spoil yourself. But, you've been discarding syringes negligently all over the country and now you have reached the limit.

Zero tollerance is what you're asking for.

Life with Hepatitis B, hep B or HBV.

Make sure you are vaccinated, just in case you happen to step on a syringe discarded by some irresponsible druggie whilst at a BBQ with 'friends' near the beach. It already happened, it might happen again.

Mhux tort tieghi ukell hiex? Kemm qidin sew

2005-07-08T13:36:00.000Z

Illum ha nikteb blogg bir-Rabti mghawweg u bil-kennella. Ghazelt dul-kulur biex zgur ma ninsiex kemm fil-kors jien imdawwar b'erbgha meshiet ta sorm mahmugin inkalluti. Mhux killa to, ghax hemm erbgha tful sew ukell u li kieku jkelli nikteb blogg fuqem, niktbu bl-isfar, kulur ix-xemx. Imma llum mhux il-kuz, ghax illum ha nikteb fuq wahda hekk imxebbha ma harja moqlija bit-tewm u t-tursin.

Me dalghodu kelli mmur l-Institjut of Helt Ker biex nehles minn essajnment li kien ghodni inlesti. Wara killex kien ghal-lum. Niltaqa ma wahda mill-kowordinejters tal-modjuwl tal-genn u qaltli li kella bzonn tkellimni.

Mela x'qaltli din Guza taghna?! Kien hemm wahda tinten minn tal-grupp li qed fih jien (l-uniku wahda li ma ghaddietx mill-ezumi) u marret tghidilha li minghandi qatt ma rciviet ij mejls bin-nowts. Mela l-MSN messenger dejjem onlajn, mobajl dejjem mixghewl, 5 indirizzi tal-ij mejl u dil-moghza liebsa l-hwejjeg kella l-wecc tghid li qatt ma rciviet minghandi. Mel' ghax ma bghattx tghidli? Li ma kentx gallinur mimli tigieg!

Duk il-hin kent sa niehu bumba mma peress li kien hemm iz-zghira tieghi ma gembi, ghedt ha noqghod naqa kwiet. Demmi kien digo qisu purvli imma too!! Spjigajt lil-kowordinejter li jien nippruva nkun kemm jista jkun evejlabil imma jekk dil-hmura bidlet l-indirezz tal-ij mejl jew ticcekkjuh darba fix-xahar u jkun mimli s'exx ummu, mhux tort tieghi aqqas eeex?!?! Spjigajt li ili neqred biex nghamlu sistema ta smss furma ta katina mill-bidu tal-kors imma dejjem jinholoq xi pestezz ta sold li jnik killex.

W'insumma, gejt id-dur, iccekkjajt, w'insib li ta dil-fussa tad-dranagg li minghalija ha twaqqa t-tort tal-fruga li ghamlet waqt l-ezumi fuqi, qas bess kelli indirezz. Imma kelli ta wahda li maghha tkun dejjem ikkakkmuta, a kieku riedet, setghet gibitem minghandha in-nowts, il-moqzieza latrina. A x'ghamelt? Bghatt ij mejl lil kowordinejter fejn spjigajtiha killex u ghedtilha li la jien ma kellix indirezz taghha, minnha naqas ghax ma tutulhix.

W'issa li ktebt il-blogg ha ndabbar rusi ha mmur nghaddi naqa ghaz-zghira tieghi u nibqa sejjer nghamel naqa biznis. U la nura lil dik il-fussa mimlija hara mahlul nghidilha zewg kelmiet kif tmess il-ligi. Anzi, ussa nisteqsi naqa l-mistoqsija x'hinume d-drittijiet tieghi ukell ara! He He

Sahha w'il-hara

Il-post tan-Nar, l-ITU u l-Hero li haqqu midalja

2005-07-07T08:33:00.000Z

Mela peress li gej l-essajnment ta l-infekxin kontrol u la jien, la l-Gemel iz-zghir u qas l-Gemel il-kbir ma ghamilna karlin xoghol fuqu, issa qbadna nippanikjaw. A x'ghamilna? Tlaqna mix-xoghol mill-maqjel ta H'Attard u morna nghamlu id-dejta kollekxin mill-Aj Ti Ju.

Hemm sibt wiehed mix-xifts li hadt gost nahdem maghhom; Frans, Aaron, Kris, In-Nicky fost l-ohrajn insomma. Ghamilt id-dejta kollekxin tieghi u filwaqt li kont qed nistenna lill-igmla jillestu xogholhom, mort nitkellem naqra ma siehbi Frans. hawn insib lil wiehed minn dawk tal-kamra tan-nar. Smajt l-istorja w bqajt fuckin iblah.

Minkejja li kellu iz-zewg idejn u iz-zewg saqajn mahruqa u id miksura fost l-ohrajn, dan il-bniedem ta vera, irnexxielu jdeffes 3 ohra gol-Hunter armat b'magna diesel u jsuq sa l-emergenza. Tinsewx li hdejn il-Peridot Hall hemm it-taqlib li halaq Alla kollu ghax hemm it-triq maqlugha. Dan telgha kontra it-traffiku u baqa gej l-isptar. Nistqarr li dan haqqu mhux jghix ta, imma wara li jghaddi kollox jiehu midalja. Minkejja li kien wiehed mill-ghar li ntlaqtu, wasal xorta! Bniedem bil-bajd!

U nistqarr li minkejja li jien mhux xi kompetitur ta Tereza ghal beatitudni, tlabt ghalieh (u ghall ohrajn kif kont hemm). Tlabt ukoll forsi dan il-genn jieqaf. Mhux ha nghid li ma nkunx kuntent jekk jkun hawn waqfien totali tax-xoghol tan-nar go Malta mma dawn in-nies nifhem xi jhossu ghax delizzju f'periklu ta estinzjoni ghandi jien ukoll. Minn naha l-ohra, kemm ha ndumu nhallsu qares ghal dawn il-beraq, murtali u sfejjer? Wasal iz-zmien li xi hadd jkollu bajd bizzejjed biex jiehu passi ta vera w jigi jitnejjek mill-voti. Il-wegghat huma hafna ikbar mill-fethiet tal-kulur.

Gazzetta 1, Gazzetta 2, Gazzetta 3, Gazzetta 4, Gazzetta 5

Differenti, ghal darba!!

2005-07-07T07:55:00.000Z

Mawra ta xi siegha go l-internett wasslitni biex nghamel viezta lil din is-sajt fejn ghal darba, u wisq probabbli darba biss, sibt xi haga li mhix bumbardament atomiku lejn il-kacca w l-insib. Sibt xi haga interessanti li biha il-bewd wajf (peress li ma hemmx fuq xiex jibbumbardjaw u ma tantx hawn xi speci interessanti wisq ipassu bhalissa) qeghda tikkummenta/tithasseb. Il-golf kors li l-gvern immuffat u mghakkar bit-tidlik tal-hbieb immexxi minn The Gonz qed jipproponi li jghamel. Stupru totali ta raba saqwi u xaghra rikka. Sfregju iehor ghal ma l-ohrajn. Qed nigbru giehna billi nahdmu fuq il-muntanja Maghtab u min naha l-ohra nipproponu dal-golf kors u reklamazzjoni ta art qrib il-blata hekk imsejha 'tas-safra'. Kazz war' iehor.

Loooovely Fraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaans

Imbghad ghaddejt naqra sal-Istilla Malta punto com fejn sibt li l-stess artiklu fuq l-ahhar att ta kontroll fuq il-popolazzjoni dinjija hekk imsejjah Tsunami. Madonna tal-hniena, ma hemm xejn iktar interessanti biex nimlew naqra jew?

U nista ma nghaddix sa l-OIM niehu drink?! Xarks kontra xarks das-sajf. Kull wiehed enormi! rajt ritratt tat-twerwir u sahansitra semmew wiehed li ghal ftit ma belghax il-vapur ta Ghawdex. U jien u z-zghira tieghi nitbahbhu gol-bahar. X'ala d-duda eh Den!!!?!?!?!?

Ara fejn hi Hiiii, Loooooooooooovely!!
Dak kien zmien, niekol, nixrob, nibki u jimlewni ikel, nahra u jbiddluli, jahsluli sormi u jifgawni bit-terra tal-Johnson and Johnson u x'hin niddejjaq nigi nitnejjek u norqod. Viva l-ghazz.

Insomma, ha nkompli nahli naqa hin.

Fl-ahhar gejt sa hawn nispara xi zewg tiri. Ghaddejt kwarta nistmapa l-daw il-qatta koroh li jfiggu minn got-twieqi mma fl-ahhar niekni dak il-kurnut li jitla minn tahtek minn naha tax-xellug ta l-iskriin. G'exx ummu!

Issa ha mmur norqod siegha halli b'kollox inkun hlejt saghtejn mill-parti ta hajti li mhix taht effett ta alkohol. X'ala d-duda!

Reflective Diary

2005-07-05T23:05:00.000Z

As an assessment of the Mental Health related to practice module, our co-ordinator asked for a "reflective diary" (somethin like this). To start with, our coordinator (quite a cheerful person who does'nt lack neither knowledge nor sense of humor but could make use of a brush or comb in the morning) is really the deputy to a foreigner (resembling Ozzy Osbourne and obsessed by suicidal patients) who has been brought over from some other country in a desperate attempt by the authorities to reform the mental health acts of this country amongst another million things. Little parenthesis - Why desperate? Because we have turned our back towards mental health for so long that now abuse has become the norm. Shame!!

Back to the diary; in it we're supposed to log what we come across in the mental health placement, our feelings, constructive criticism etc etc etc. And you'd say, "So? What's the fucking big deal about it?" Nothing really except for the fact that I don't like the way most employees treat their clients. Their attitudes are, to say the least, disgusting. The way they talk to them, the way they react to their clues (if they have an idea what clues are), the way they 'physically' deal with them, I DON'T LIKE ANYTHIN OF THAT!

So questions arise; should I just hand in a diary which highlights some minor irregularities and proposes some changes which will still never be implemented due to the fact that they were suggested by a student?
Or should I hand in a diary which narrates how I felt when I saw the way those pigs treated other humans which might not be quite healthy upstairs but do have good, functional pain sensors? Should it include that a man with Huntington's Chorea has been mistreated because of the involuntary movements caused by his disease? This was the same man who, the day after thanked me for putting his leg in place after an involuntary jerk planted his fore foot in my calf. When I turned round I saw he was afraid of me. I think he expected a different reaction to that which I exhibited. Did I react? HELL, NO! He just could'nt help it, so I just lifted his leg up and put it back on the foot rest. I was just human.

I would like to write that the one who did fly over the cuckoo's nest was a lucky bastard coz the others don't manage to. They're sometimes driven into the nest rather than helped out of this labirinth. I would like to write that if John Forbes Nash was admitted here, he would'nt have managed to get that Nobel, no game theory, just 3 in 1 meals, weather he liked it or not - and he'd have to eat all of it.

And more questions arise. I went there with the hope that I'd see something different from what I had seen time ago, but no, the story is just the same. And it'll be the same until either they are driven out of there in a trolley by the porters or until mentality changes; and we all know that it does'nt. I would also like to add that there are also sensible people who do their job quite well, who are sensitive to the needs of these patients, who treat them as humans. The picture is not all black. There's some Grey and a lot of White too.
But I just wish this placement is over soon. I just wanna forget about here and hopefully never come back. I just wish these people's misery ends.

Speed - The Feeling

2005-06-26T18:24:00.000Z

Speed

Whilst havin a chat with a colleague of mine just back from the E raz Muuu Z exchange about A&E, inevitably the conversation HAD to cover the speeds and driving skills of paramedics. Speeds she has seen on ambulances' speedos racing on Italy's autostrada were circa 140km/hr. She admitted she was a bit afraid when they did 180km/hr (110MpH) but she liked it! Whilst I was listening to her, my thoughts drifted away...........to the time when I used to do those speeds or maybe a little more.

Irresposible? Could be, but the feeling is irreplacable. The feeling I miss today driving a 2.5 turbo diesel. I do get thrills today when goin down a steep slope or tackling a difficult passage but the speed experience always did and will score highest. Feelin free................and as soon as the car behind flashes its lights the challenge is taken up immediately, automatically I dare say (even though once the flashes came from a brand new mobile squad alfa romeo!! At least the guys in it were addicted like I was, so that just cost me a scold followed by the opening of the bonnet to show the beast lying in there, waiting for the electronic pump to increase the flow of petrol [with some ethanol added to boost and methanol to cool it] and release its power).

Back to the flashing, gear down to third, the roar and the hissing of the turbo charger, windows up, sound off, adrenalin pump ON. Then the zig zag overtaking with the truck comin opposite flashing its lights and maybe sticking close to his side of the double white line to instill that sharp pang of fear in you. And the pump is tremendous, adrenalin levels sky high. So after overtaking, missing the bloody fuck's truck for just inches, and managing to get your way on the sucker behind who dared flashing, when your body starts to go back to normal, the rush of blood to the head, the tingling in the feet, abdominal organs sqeezed, heart rate at its max. - the feeling I miss.

The Stairway

2005-06-24T15:29:00.000Z

Piper calling you to join him
There's a lady who's sureAll that glitters is goldAnd she's buying a stairway to heavenWhen she gets there she knowsIf the stores are all closedWith a word she can get what she came forOoh-ooh-ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh-ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heavenThere's a sign on the wallBut she wants to be sure'Cause you know sometimes words have two meaningsIn a tree by the brookThere's a songbird who singsSometimes all of our thoughts are misgivenOoh, it makes me wonderOoh, it makes me wonderThere's a feeling I getWhen I look to the westAnd my spirit is crying for leavingIn my thoughts I have seenRings of smoke through the treesAnd the voices of those who stand lookingOoh, it makes me wonderOoh, it really makes me wonderAnd it's whispered that soonIf we all call the tuneThen the piper will lead us to reasonAnd a new day will dawnFor those who stand longAnd the forests will echo with laughterOhh-ooh ohh-ooh ohh-ooh ohh-ooh ohh hohIf there's a bustle in your hedgerowDon't be alarmed nowIt's just a spring clean for the May-QueenYes, there are two paths you can go byBut in the long runThere's still time to change the road you're onAnd it makes me wonderAhhh, hoh-hohYour head is humming and it won't goIn case you don't knowThe piper's calling you to join himDear lady, can you hear the wind blowAnd did you knowYour stairway lies on the whispering wind(Guitar Solo)And as we wind on down the roadOur shadows taller than our soulThere walks a lady we all knowWho shines white light and wants to showHow ev'rything still turns to goldAnd if you listen very hardThe tune will come to you at lastWhen all are one and one is all, yeah-ee-yeahTo be a rock and not to rollAnd she's buying a stairway to heaven

Relazzjoni intima

2005-06-22T07:57:00.000Z

Nistqarr, iva, li minkejja il-paroli kollu fuq l-imhabba li ghandi lejn Denise, jien ghandi relazzjoni ohra. Relazzjoni li ilha ghaddejja snin twal, li bdiet hafa qabel dik li ghandi bhalissa. Ma nafx jekk hi hix konxja ta dan jew inkella hix qed tistenna li nghidilha jien. Ma sirtx nghaddi minghajr l-ohra, l-ohrajn propja. Aktar ma jghaddi zmien, is-sitwazzjoni dejjem tiggrava ruhha. Lil Den inhobbha imma minghajr l-ohrajn ma nghaddix. Id-dar, ix-xoghol, Ghawdex, part time; dejjem wahda differenti mma fl-essenza, dejjem l-istess. Ftit mumenti qosra ta intimita liema bhala. Kollox bil-harba mmexxi minn dak l-istint annimalesk, minn dak il-guh. Go fiha, minghajr ma naghti kaz tal-konsegwenzi, minghajr ma nahseb xejn. U jigri ukoll xi kultant li nixwi kollox ghax indewmu hafna go fiha.

Wahda kenwood u tghidx kif tixwieh malajr, ohra xi ditta ciniza (wing ekito balazo bbkbir). Kollha differenti imma minghajrhom ma nghaddix ghax daqsxejn hobz tal-franciz mixwi bil-gobon, perzut u rota tadama immut ghalieh. Nghidilha tghid? Tghid Den kif tehodha? Jew taf b'kollox diga?

Xwajten konfuz hafna

YOU

2005-06-21T15:38:00.000Z

I awake, perspiration all over
What was this, a dream?
Must ave been a nightmare
But the choke, that felt so real
So real I need fresh air.

She's asleep in our messed up bed
After we've made passionate love
And I'm sitting here, naked
In the balcony, thinking whilst watching her
The full moon watchin me.

Such hard times I did go through
I'm sure there's more to come
Yet sometimes I feel confused
About this something bieng so strong
This something being you, that pulls me.

Is it you or something else?
Coz when you leave my day stands still
And when you're here I feel alive
At times you treat me like shit
But there I am still back for more.

I see you as a guiding lantern at night
As the vessel's crew watches the lighthouse
But the lighthouse signals danger
And this makes me think further
But, to no avail.

Sometimes I worry as to where
Where this blinding light comes from
Where will it take me?
A light mysterious more than night itself
If not sent by what reigns at night.

There's something about you
I'm so damn sure there is
That's like a witch's spell
Cast over me from far away land
Which I cannot fight, which I cannot resist.

And I am dragged
Am I? No, I flow
I consent to this pull
The pull towards you
Towards the unknown.

Then, as my feet touch the ground
I realise it's cold
Out here, naked, alone
Then I think
Is it just the moon watching?

So a thrill travels up my spine
As I walk back inside
And.........I don't look back
For fear of what there could be
Fear of discovering the truth.

Then smoothly I slide in my bed
Thoughts are still in my head
And I sleep, for how long?
Until the dream
Was it a dream or a choke?

So I awake, perspiration all over
What was this, a dream?
It must ave been a nightmare
But the choke, that felt so real
Felt so real I needed fresh air.

KJH 2004

............nigi nitnejjek jien ta

2005-06-20T14:34:00.000Z

Mela kif skoprejt il-bloggijiet jien waqt diskursata ma Mistoqsija, ovvjament qed nghaddi l-informazzjoni lil haddiehor, generalment bla hsieb ta xejn. Peress li l-kliem jigi bhac-cirasa, filli tiddiskuti ii mejl tajjeb u mbad titkellem fuq xi haga ohra w insomma, din habibti skopriet l-blog (se nhalliha anonima).
Din il-gimgha nahseb kienet qeda taqra xi bloggijiet Maltin (lista) u meta ltqajna qaltli, "hehe taf x'innotajt? Ma tantx ghandek komments int. Nahseb il-blogg tieghek ma tantx jaqrawh nies."

U ovvjament shabi b'dik ir-ras imgennba u widna imqajjma jistennew ir-risposta tieghi (ghax generalment it-ton ta kif nghanni, "sorry ta, jien x'nitnejjek a?!!" idoqqilhom hafna). Ikkuntentejthom jien hu! Jien nikteb ghalija, flok go pitazz jew dijarju jew werd dokjument, nikteb blogg biex meta rrid nerga naqrah, niftakar fil-burdata li kelli, forsi xi hadd li jkun irid jaqra jista, xi hadd li jaqbel jew ma jaqbilx mieghi, jghidli etc. Imma minn naha l-ohra, jekk hadd ma kkummenta, ghaziza habiba ........... "jien x'nitnejjek a?!"

P.S. Biex hadd ma jifhem hazin, il-habiba li qaltli hekk mhix Mistoqsija.

Tista Tmut Int --- bil-misthija

2005-06-18T19:07:00.000Z

Illum ser nikteb il-blogg bl-ahmar, il-kulur li jilbsu l-wardiet ta wiccek meta tkun qed tisthi, li wara ftit tal-hin jibda jinfirex ghal widnejk u ghal mohhok sakemm tigi vampa. U ghaliex tisthi? Tisthi meta jkollok taffronta xi haga li mhix soltu ghalik, meta johorgu pubblici affarijiet personali, meta taghmel xi kazzata u jsiru jafu biha ta madwarek etc etc etc. Nahseb li xi darba kulhadd xeghel id-dawl ta wiccu u hass il-fawra tielgha. U jghaddi z-zmien u xorta kultant jigu mumenti jew ahjar, jinholqu cirkustanzi fejn lilek iggheluk tisthi, fejn jinkixfulek il-borom.

U jekk int obijz jew anoreksik, jekk tellajtx qrun jew kornewk, jekk habbiltx u hrabt, jekk hrabtx ghax hassejtek go gagga jew jekk marid b'xi kankru jew maskular distrofi, ma jimporta xejn ghal dik Re-jxil. Addio dejta protekxin u dawn il-hafna mutetti. Dawk ma japplikawx hawnhekk. Malta, jew ahjar il-parti tal-popolazzjoni Maltija li tara il-programm (li jien sfortunatament indirettament parti minnha ghax daqqa tghajjatli ommi bid-dmugh f'ghajnejha u daqqa jghidulek, "istra taf x'gabu l-bierah?!"----"hehe, ghidli ghidli ghal l-gherwieh!!!"), tkun taf int minn xiex qed tbati jew x'gerfixt fi zmienek.

Kaz tipiku ta nies li ghalija qedin jilbsu maskri ta persuni bi qlub kbar (ikbar kultant minn ta Madre Tereza) u li ghandhom imhabba tant infinita lejn il-proxxmu li lesti jissalbu biex jghamluk ferhan, jew biex joqtluk bil-misthija! U dan ghaliex? Biex imbghad niftahru fuq ir-radju kemm ghandna vjuwerxip tal-programm nhar ta Hadd u kemm jkun hawn min isegwi r-ripetizzjoni w kemm qed nghamlu gid. Niehu gost nisma li mara bla xoghol u b'xi 5 ulied ma saqajha nghamlulha xi kcina u kamra tas-sodda gdida ta (ghax sew hekk) imma nghid jien, kieku nsibulha xoghol b'hinijiet flessibbli w naghtuha ftit edukazzjoni fuq is-sess u xi mard li tista tant facilment tlaqqat ma nkunux qed nghamlu iktar gid fit-tul jew? Barraminhekk, ma jkunx hemm ghalfejn nesponu lil dawn in-nies quddiem kulhadd. IMMA, il-vjuwerxip imbghad? Eeeeeh dik importanti iktar mid-dritt sagrosant ghal privatezza u kunfidenzjalita, wara kollox in-nies hekk jiehdu gost iqattghu il-Hadd filghodu hux? Isegwu d-disgrazzji ta haddiehor. Wara kollox tista tkun int hu?!!!

minn xoghol ghal xoghol waqt ix-xoghol

2005-06-16T11:48:00.000Z

...............................u wara lejl god-dar tax-xjuh, imdawwar b'massa ta carers li l-intelligenza taghhom tvarja minn +1.2414428 ghal -78,298.395 fejn bniedem 'normali' jiskorja xi +500, nies li l-kbir alla ta l-intellett ifflaxxja is-sens komun taghhom minn gol-loki ghal god-drenagg. Ukoll maghna, it-tant fitt u mishut in-nemus li kif jigi c-cans jerdaghli demmi, u sistema ta arja ikkundizzjunata li ma tiswiex karlin imtaqqab bl-addocc. Wara dan il-lejl bqajt sejjer l-istitut ghal kura tas-sahha (institjut of helt keer). U xi ssib aw gew xwajten? Lecture room mimlija bil-merhla shabi. Rifrexment kors tal-bejzik lajf sapport.............cest komprexxins u erwej klirans u bla bla bla u vidjow ghaddej u jien nonghos. Issa 2pm ghadni kif kilt bil-hatfa qisni hanzir selvagg wara gimgha imsakkar go gagga bil-guh, gejt nimpusta blogg u ha mmur ghax-xoghol ergajt, god-dar tax-xjuh, sad-9 ta llejla. Irqad?? -----------------------------irhilu llum.

Lovely Xwajteeeeeeeeen!!!

Practical

2005-06-13T20:39:00.000Z

Xwajten's quasi Utopia

U l-ahhar ezami li baqa: siegha prattika live:) quddiem zewg ezaminaturi li ma ghandi grazzja maghhom XEJN! Kellu jkun ghada. U x'jghamel l-istudent? Jidhol l-Hadd filghodu ghax xoghol biex jipprepara, jigi d-dar ikompli jimmanka l-gurnata tal-Hadd bi preparamenti-SMS-Gej sal-pjazza Bugibba man illejla ha niehdu flixkun birra? Long time no C hu?!?! REPLY-Aaaaw king, sorry mma llejla le ta ghax baqali skoss affarijiet x'nillesti ghall-ezami. Imbghad inkellmek id-diehla, TC. U Xwajten jmur ghax xoghol it-tnejn filghodu, jirfina u jirtokkja sa l-anqas dettall u ................................. melodija Space1 (Samsung) akkumpanjata ma vibrazzjoni gejja mil-but tax-xellug ta l-uniformi. Dan x'numru hu? Hello!?!??.................."bla bla bla bla ghax ghandi naqra bad news ta dalghodu"........ijja? (x'faqgha!) x'inqala? "ghax l-ezami gie cancelled ta ghax ta mieghi cemplet sick dalghodu"...........eh iva miskina? (u minn gewwa dagha fahxi). Imbghad intuk data ohra ta hi, good day".....................yeah right, yours will be good, mine's fucked up!
Issa l-pazjent maghzul jkun telaq, data ghada pendenti, ground work ghal goz-zibel (il-gurnata tal-Hadd li mmankajt) u jien noqghod nistenna sakemm Camilla taghna tfieq u tirkupra bizzejjed sahhiet biex tinduna b'xi zball zghir tieghi u tara kif taghmel biex issallabni iktar milli jsallbuk tad-dipartiment tat-taxxi interni.

Lovely Xwajteeeeeeeeeeeeen!!

Lowell Norman - Ghandu jew ma ghandux ragun?!?!?!

2005-06-12T16:17:00.000Z

Ghadni kif qrajt il-blogg ta l-ghaziza habiba Mistoqsija u hawn gej tieghi! Qanqlitni biex nikteb fuq dan is-suggett li fuqu ta sikwit jkolli argumenti; Lowell u ovvjament dak li hu abbinat mieghu.
Nahseb li jekk Lowell jehel xi haga (habs, multa, hi x'hini l-piena), tkun biss biex insoddu halq dawk li qed jghamlu propoganda kontra tieghu w ukoll bhala canfira ("tkellem ghax ghandek ragun u ahna bhalek nahsbuha, imma mhux hekk Norman hi ghax inkella jkollna nimmultawk"). Ghaliex? Kultant nahseb li d-diskors ta Lowell jigi iktar ispirat minn sentimenti ta mibgheda lejn dawn in-nies. Dan jdejjaqni ftit pero minn naha l-ohra nibza meta nibda nisimghu jsemmi pajjizi li ghaddew minn dak li ghaddejjin minnu ahna bhalissa, pero 25 sena ilu! Jigifieri 25-30 sen'ohra t-tfal tieghi jista jigi zmien fejn ma jistghux jmorru Bugibba? jew Paceville? jew hu fejn hu f'pajjizi tant ghal-qalbi?!?! Jekk hu hekk, jiddispjacini hafna ghal pajjizi u niesu fostom jien. Pero jiddispjacini hafna inqas ghal dawk li huma specjalment ostinati li ma jridux jammettu li l-indikazzjonijiet huma li lejn dik id-direzzjoni sejrin. Dawk jkunu stiednu l-ghib, tefghu il-lifgha go hobbhom.

Diga xbajna naraw u nisimghu stejjer fuq dawn in-nies. Huma ha jghamlu mma jekk int, go pajjizek tirribatti, hekk le, hekk INT razzist. Diga jridu drittijiet daqsna meta lilna dawn qedin jiswewna l-flus biex inzommuhom hawn ,HAJJIN!

U lil min jghid li jekk ma rridux li jiswewna daqshekk flus nibghatuhom jahdmu x'nghidlu jien?
Jekk qed tghix Malta suppost taf r-rata tal-qaghad fejn hi!
Ghandek idea kemm jsiru testijiet medici fuq dawn in-nies ta kuljum go l-isptar? Ta kuljum jigi trakk jew jeeps ta l-armata mimlija bi klandestini ghat-testijiet. Ghandek idea kemm il-wahda minnhom qed tigi hawnhekk tqila w tispicca go sodda go l-isptar taghna w Maltija bhali u bhalek qed tispicca go sodda go kuritur ghax ma hemmx post? Hekk sew mela! Hallas l-kontributi fl-ahhar tax-xahar ghas-servizz eh!!

U dritt jghixu hawn = dritt jahdmu hawn hux vera?! Skuzawni ta, imma ghajnejkom fejn qedin? Ghandna rata ta dizokkupazzjoni tal-biza w irridu naghtu d-dritt ghax-xoghol lil massa ta nies li n-numru taghhom prattikament kull ma jiddependi hu fuq it-temp. Mela xi rridu? Nibghatu lit-tfal Maltin jahdmu barra ghas-semplici raguni li hawn ghandna diga problema ta xoghol ghal kulhadd u lil dawn in-nies irridu ntuhom dritt jghixu w jahdmu hawn. Mela, hekk jonqos!
Incentiv min ihaddem ghandu ta, ticcajta ghandux?!?! Jithallsu bix-xejn u imsieken (ghax imsieken huma) jahdmu daqs bghula, tkun cuc jekk ma thaddimx lilhom hu....................u l-Maltin bla xoghol. U min jghid li dan mhux minnu, kull ma jrid jmur idur dawra go siti ta kostruzzjoni, jaghti naqra kaz min jkun hemm wara hafna mit-trakkijiet li jigu jigbru iz-zibel, jmur daqsxejn fil-kcejjen u l-postijiet ta divertiment u jara min jdahhal l-kaxxi tal-koka u l-birra. Diga tista tara b'ghajnejk dak li qed nghid jien, mur u ARA!!

U jekk b'dawn il-hsibijiet, anzi b'dan l-inkwiet ghal gejjieni taghna, jekk dan kollu jghamlek razzist, mela jien iva, jkolli nikklassifika bhala razzist. Haga li hi zgur hi li jien, Xwajten, ma ghandix odju lejn dawn in-nies, nipprova nimmagina minn xiex jghaddu (avolja ma nistax nifhem ghax ma esperjenzajtx-kif tghid Dr.Baldacchino-x'jaf min ma garrabx?) pero nimmagina li mhix decizjoni facli titlaq fuq qoxra kultant ikkundannata lejn destin bahh, imma lili min qed jifhimni? L-ulied li Alla forsi jtini, ghandom dritt ghal dak li jien s'issa hadt for granted? Uliedi ser jitilquli jghixu barra hekk kif isiru indipendenti ghar-raguni li pajjizom sar bhal Brixton? Ma rridx li pajjizi jizviluppa biex isir bhal Brixton u ohrajn, ghandi dritt nahseb hux?!

Issa nahseb ahjar nieqaf ghax anke hawn gew wahdi qed nitbaqbaq! Intkom aqraw, irrispondu ki tridu, ahsbu li tridu mma deep down illejla fuq l-imhadda kunu sincieri u ghamlu l-ghazla bejn demmkom, uliedkom, il-familja taghkom, u mmigranti klandestini (huma ta liema razza, kulur u forma huma).

Unlucky Femoral

2005-06-10T10:35:00.000Z

Femoral Artery

Something which really struck me yesterday whilst at work was the misfortune of this middle aged man. Whilst using a chaser to cut through a piece of iron, we presume that he applied slightly more force than he should. We all know what these high powered tools with revs per minute reaching amazing amounts can do. So why on this bloody earth do we not take enough precautions? I type this and have flashbacks of the tens of times I could have got hurt with my tool. I imagine how that little burn on the finger could have easily been an amputation, how that ruined running shoe could have been worse. So why did I never use gloves, why did I never wear the bloody safety shoes instead of leavin it there to rot on the bloody shelf? Questions one asks himself when it's too late, when the shit would have hit the fan. When do we realise that who is suffering in front of our eyes maybe could have avoided this? When do we realise that we might be lyin there in the bed instead of him after having lost massive amounts of blood, suffered brain hypoxia for only God knows how long? Coz that's where the tool planted its disk, in the man's femoral.

Xwajten has seen the wound the man has, Xwajten has seen the signs showing brain death, Xwajten has seen the expressionless look on the poor man's face. Xwajten has seen the pain and sorrow of that wife, those kids, those parents, relatives, friends.

So I'm struck and I think, and what I think I type coz it's my way of coping, my way of maybe changing things, my way of thinking that I did help you stay aware, my way of finding the strength to carry on and be better at what I do, my way of showing that I care.

Spank

2005-06-08T15:07:00.000Z

Spank

Spank

Min jiftakar il-cartoon Hello Spank!??! Jien ghalija kien wiehed minn dawk li ma kontx nitlef. He he! Kien zmien sabih ghalija, mma mid-dehra mhux ghal-kulhadd. Insomma, llum meta nisma bi Spank, rari sirt niftakar f'meta kont zghir nara il-cartoons. Tghidli "Fejn sejjer?" Nghidlek, "ma rajtx x'hemm miktub qabel ir-ritratt ta Spank?" Min kiteb fuq dik il-kartolina qalet li qatt ma regghet sawtet u qatt ma hafret lilha nfisha ta dak li ghamlet avolja kella biss 12-il sena! Imma meta nara dawn l-affarijiet minghajr ma rrid ngib quddiem ghajnejja xena attroci li sfortunatament kelli nara. Kienet ghar minn "just a spank" eh, hafna hafna ghar.

Kien ghadni student go sala tal-pedjatrija meta dahhalna daqsxejn ta tifla ta xi 6 jew 7 snin. Wiccha kellu xi ftit tgerrim l'hawn u l'hinn imma bhal kulhadd ghedt, "ta din l-eta min ma jkunx imgerrem!?" Nghid ghalija, jien kont dimoncellu, dejjem nigri u nithabat, u ovvjament kultant nitfarrak u nitgerrem!

Wara ftit tal-hin morna jien u kollega tieghi biex lil din l-anglu innehhulha l-hwejjeg u naghtuha tilbes il-pigama. Hawn kont ser immut. Taht il-libsa din it-tifla kellha litteralment forma ta qalziet ta taht kollu marki ta hruq tas-sigaretti. Niftakar li ma flahtx nibqa bilwieqfa. Ma nafx x'ma bdejtx nistaqsi lili nnifsi dak il-hin. Ghala? Min? Kellu/a stonku? Dan mignun/a? Wara sar ir-rapport u mmedjatament bdew proceduri biex it-tifla tigi mehuda mill-kustodja ta dawn il-genituri (ejja nghidulhom genituri biologici biss).

Inhossni ipprivileggjat li minkejja li d-dar ghaddejna minn maltemp, dawn l-attrocitajiet qas biss qatt hlomt bihom u ghandi genituri li mhux talli huma radikalment kontra dan l-agir talli jikkundannawh bla riservi.
Dakinar tlaqt mix-xoghol kmieni ghax ma hassejtnix sew. Gejt lura d-dar imbikkem u bkejt. U ma nhossnix sew meta niftakar. U ma nhossnix sew meta nahseb. U ma nhossnix sew meta nerga nara. U ma nhossnix sew meta nerga nisma. U jiddispjacini ta kemm huma komuni dawn l-affarijiet. U ma nittollerax lil min jaghmel. Argumenti ma rridx nisma.

Bora Bora

2005-06-07T15:42:00.000Z

Xwajten's quasi Utopia

Waqt li ahna, massa ta 9 hbieb (7 studenti) b'nuqqas ta energija armajn fatali wara il-gimgha ta l-ezamijiet, konna armati fuq il-moll tac-Cirkewwa, faccata, Paradajs Bej kienet mimlija parti pijpil. Moll ippakkjat sa ruh in-nanna bil-karozzi, bahar icafcaf, ziffa daqsxejn friska u ahna nistadu. Ma rridx inkun giddieb, huma jistadu, jien insajjar il-laham! Tghidli, "u l-hena kolla li halaq il-Kbir Alla. Min jaf kemm kien hemm sabih hdejn il-bahar?!?!" Iiiiii mela, insejtu l-parti int jew?!

U inevitabbli waqt party, is-sirena ta l-ambulanza..........xi OD ta ekstasi. Mur u Alla mieghak, ghandek bzonnu! Komplejna u ghadda kollox, nigi id-dar meqrud daqs kemm blajt duhhan min-notes ta Steve li hraqt biex inqabbad il-BBQ u mort ghax-xoghol, imdahhan. Illum, wara ir-raqda tant mistennijja, inqum ftit ahjar biex nara ftit ahbarijiet..............go l-ambulanza..............tfajla ta 23 b'overdowz ta ekstasi. Pulizija pajzana ghal-giehna eeeeeeehh!

Fejn sejrin xwajten? Pulizija ddrogati, qassisin pedofili, imhallfin investigati, u min jaf kemm iktar irid jidwi go widnejna l-imsejkna iktar ma nsiru tolleranti.

U nghid jien, Alla maghna, ghax ghandna bzonnu!

-----------mill-gazzetta---------------Kuntistabbli mara fil-lejl ta’ bejn il-Hadd u l-bierah iddahhlet l-Isptar San Luqa f’qaghda gravi ssofri minn abbuz ta’ droga izda b’xorti tajba mhix fil-periklu tal-mewt.

Il-Pulizija, li ghandha 23 sena, kienet qieghda tattendi party f’Paradise Bay, limiti tal-Mellieha flimkien ma’ grupp ta’ hbieb taghha. Dak il-hin il-Pulizija mara ma kinitx xoghol. F’hin minnhom intilfet minn sensiha u bdiet tinghata l-ewwel ghajnuna fuq il-post.

Fuq il-post issejhet ambulanza li hadet lit-tfajla l-Isptar San Luqa fejn instabet li kienet qieghda ssofri minn overdose ta’ droga x’aktarx ecstasy. Hija baqghet tinzamm l-isptar ghal aktar kura u taht osservazzjoni kemm tat-tobba kif ukoll tal-Pulizija mill-Iskwadra ta’ Kontra d-Droga u dawk tad-Distrett tal-Qawra. Mhux maghruf jekk il-Pulizija ghamlitx xi arresti dwar dan il-kaz jew jekk instabitx aktar droga waqt dan il-party. Il-Pulizija ghadha tinvestiga l-kaz.
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